The negative consequences of a lack of inspiration.

Usually speaking, there are certain moments of life that can inspire very separate reactions to follow the origin of a feeling, hence making it an inspiration.
The things that I look for in the world for inspirations to wright are in copious amounts and can be summed up quite simply as the world around me. There has yet to be a day to pass when there has not been some kind of an encounter of one kind or another to tip the scale a little farther towards the side of 'humans are the injustice'. However; at this point, these are not the subjects or inspirational material that is being discussed. The real issue of the evening is the lack of any sort of creative inspiration to create. As it turns out, a deeper amount of emotional involvement with the drama that is causing the complete social decline is what is required in order to gain said power of creativity.

There is a challenge and a lesson here to be learned.

On one hand there is the option and opportunity to 'cure' the ailment of an under-stimulated brain by over compromising personal morals and values while diving deeply back into the trenches that I have spent an extreme amount time, energy, and effort in alleviating myself from to regain the hope of being frustrated and depressed enough to succeed at the ultimate goal.

On the other hand, one must way out the second option against the first. There is the option of a continued avoidance of old dramas, stresses, and dramas in order to maintain a somewhat stress free yet dismal existence while always having the self treachery affixed onto the shoulders like a cancerous balloon of knowledge of having more potential to create great things yet never having the truest chance of success.

Perhaps this is the time in which to consult with a few of those 'hair in the face, wear the younger sisters tight jeans and mope around all the time' emo kids, and figure out what their proverbial 'chip' of depression is about, and probe to find out if there happens to be a worthy cause for their public cry for affection and emotional security.

As it would seem, this entry is focused on yours truly.

At least I can recognize that I'm equally as fucked as the rest of the morons.



Joshua FACT!
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